My wife is amazing.
one of those days…
when you reflect back on what you’ve done with your life…bad or good, and the things I’m feeling…bad or good.
So much has changed, including myself, and in all hopes for the best…and for the best intention in sakes for my fiance.
I’m not sure what I’m feeling right now, it’s as if I’m stuck in between a wall and can only break through one way or the other. I actually fear the day that I leave for the air force and yet I know that it’ll be for the best in the future and to have a home with her.
Although I know that my mind isn’t stuck in the past, parts of it still come up in there, I can’t help that…but I can manage it…I know the things I’ve done both wrong and right and those mistakes and good actions have led me to where and especially WHO I am today.
Things sure are changing…and I know that I should feel better about it than I do right now. I still struggle of course…but I manage.
Bayside- They Looked Like Strong Hands
“I’m not larger than life, I’m not taller than trees.
Do I mean what I say? Is it just this disease, where I never go home.
Never telling the truth, how this life eats away.
Not admitting I’m fake, and I’m questioning whether this whole thing was worth it to die poor and all alone?”
i fucking love these